Soul Food.

You know those people that are really eager to comment on how you dress or how you decide to do things, well i’ve had alot of those kind of people on my back lately, and the sad thing is I actually had the ignorance to call some of those people my good friends. Although they may overlook the fact that saying ” you’re dressed so preppy today, ” or ” only gays do that… “saying things similar to this sort still affects a person in the smallest of ways, and then when you have more people saying those kind of things just magnify the effect by ten times. I’m not going to deny that occasionally I let things like this slip out, but I now regret ever saying them. I believe it takes a great ignorance and stupidity to say things like this.

Who are you… Who are we to judge people? Ignorant people that fail to see the person so self-conscious that he hides it all with a big smile hoping that people can just pass by with noticing that his insides are slowly crumbling due to the immense pain caused by peoples words. Don’t tell me they’re just words. Words have done so much over the centuries, words can move people. Hell yeah they can and some points they can move people straight off cliffs if they’re strong enough. So do us all a favor and end the ignorance.

Once upon a time in a land called Eagleness, there was a lonely boy named Max. He sometimes sat under his tree wondering if he would ever find a true friend. One day, he sat under his tree, which in fact was an apple tree, trying to figure out a math problem, which was 1+2. When all of a sudden, out from the random, from a hole in the ground, came a girl with bows in her hair. she looked sort of lost and Max was confuzeld. He asked her what was wrong. And she said, “I was looking for my squirrel when all of a sudden a moose came and rammed me in the head.” while she was speaking, she was thinking hard. “And some how i found myself in a magical tunnel, and it lead me here.”
“Wow, that’s so cool. I was just sitting trying to figure out what 1+2 is, under my APPLE TREE.” Max exclaimed.
“Oh, 1+2=3. how could you not know that?” said the girl.
Max sadly said, ” I don’t know, I am a lonely who has no friends. do you want to be my friend?”
“Yeah, that’s so cool,” shouted Madeline
“OMG, NO WAY!!!! I have a friend. My name is Max, Max Snaxs.”

to be continued…

This pretty much sums it all up right here. Although I can’t take all the credit considering the fact that i’m just a co-writer…. this is by a friend of mine and half written by me. Credit goes to Karolina Dzbik. :D

Simply put a person that makes the best with what is given to them. Always putting their best foot forward no matter what the odds are and whatever the outcome may be. A sense of style that isn’t yet comprehended but still holds his head high not with pride but with courage. Knows how to swagger when it’s needed because swagger adds to their flare.

You don’t have to do drugs or drink to prove to anyone that your something special. You’re special in your own right we just have to search for what makes us special. Forget the “gangsters” that rank you on how baggy your clothing is, or by much you indulge. They’re really not worth stressing over. I don’t have a problem with indulgences it only matters to me if you’re doing it for the wrong reason.

Be your own gangster and swagger it out.

I know at times I say I regret somethings like friendships I had or have, decisions I’ve made, but I take all those words back because they helped me become a better and stronger person. And although I may not be friends with them anymore they still helped me smile during that part of my life. And so I hold no regrets, I just hope they don’t forget the smiles we shared. :)

Long Weekend to do list:

[X] get a blackberry (maybe)

[] send in my grad photo order forms

[X] send in my deposit for Uvic

[X] go out ;)

[X] get better from sickness

[X] study for the calculus test

So as days, weeks, months, and years pass… i’m pretty much feeling the same way. I don’t gets? Like come on. You’d think that after everything I could just get over it. But knowing me so very well I can’t. I don’t. I can’t explain. But i’m gonna be honest here saying that it’s not a pain. In fact I quite enjoy what it is now. Not gonna lie though I still like you, but it’s less obsessive, much less. I’m pretty sure I’m not gonna be rushing into anything because it wasn’t really worth it, whenever I did. I’m glad we’re kinda friends now, scratch that i’m relieved because it’s less awkward. I know before we had our fair share of differences and fights, but if anything i’ve put those behind us and you know why, because it made our friendship stronger-ish, and I thought it was worth fighting for. I honestly can’t imagine graduating and not being able to glance at you when you’re not watching ;D. Jokes. But it’ll defs take some getting used to.

Don’t build friendships off a single moment, because you never know whether that moment meant more to you than the person you shared it with.

All those times I thought one thing because of a single event I never really saw any other possibilities. Which was probably my mistake. I was so very infatuated that I could never really see anything else….

So I’ve been thinking lately about relationships and everything of the sort… and I’ve realized a few things that I feel are worthwhile to note. If you’ve seen a good number of relationship go down the drain even though both people were willing to give their “everything”, I can definitely relate. When you think about it is it really possible to give someone your everything? Is it even safe to give someone your everything?

Personally I don’t even know if it’s even possible I mean “everything”.. really?! I used to think the same exact way telling someone you want to be their everything or you want them to be your everything could mean a lot, but it could also mean just as less if the person saying it doesn’t really mean it. I mean I’m all in for LOVE and all the privileges that go along with it in a healthy marriage of course, but I’m merely speaking of the high school relationships I see 5 days of the week. When you say that someone’s really your “everything” or you want them to be, do you know what values you have? or what “everything” really is? Maybe this is just babble, not sure at the moment but when I get back to it I want a few foot-notes.

If I were to say something important to me right now it would probably go like this ” I don’t want to be your everything because then we miss out on other really great opportunities, but I want to be the ONE. ” The one that she trusts, the one that she can be honest with, the one that will be there through every fault and stumble because if you’re the ONE there will never be a two or three because she won’t need another. But when you overtake all of the thing in her life by becoming her “everything” then there’s nothing to strive for because apparently she already has it.  

 ”Aristophanes once wrote, roughly translated; “Youth ages, immaturity is outgrown, ignorance can be educated, and drunkenness sobered, but STUPID lasts forever.” 

- Emperors Club.

Gosh I learned so much today at the pastoral, but something that stuck to me was the saying that “God doesn’t call the qualified but rather he qualifies those who are called.” What a confidence booster knowing that even though we feel inadequate he strengthens and arms us with everything we need to move forward.

Amen. 

I keep asking myself if this is all worth it…?

I would give it all up for you…

(via solisitation)